My Belief

Concentration. focus and not distracted by meaningless stuff. I manage to pull thru with TS on his school result.

A shiny 2nd position and top 3 class for P3.

If result don't show people of their inability to even judge the importance of family matters..then nothing will. Let those degrading people continue their path. it become not essential to even try to be mindful of it. Why? because life there is more meaningful things than to look into hopeless human being actions.

I can do it. I can do better. I will achieve. Let - it - go. right or wrong no longer plays a part. I may well cut it off totally....

Work - event

Hosted another work event today. Cooking - team building. zumba interaction.

score ? 70/100?

:)

Relationship

Anger and beyond words can describe calling me names has made me reach my peak of tolerance.

there maybe  many areas that i was wrong and had commited mistake but i thought marriage could have seen more tolerance level than that.

one thing for sure. silence does not secure nor solve anything. fight do not see matters get resolved.

giving in one step he toke 3 step forward. my heart has often give ways and hoping that things would get over the hitch and all will be fine. its seems not so.

i tried to improve life i tried to bring the world in but having to drag and pull such a heavy object (the heart) is a up hill task. money to him is everything there is....who had brought him the wealth he had today? the career that he is on track at this stage? yes. i had humiliated him with my intolerance of human mistake (esp that not of my family) but he had humiliated his one and only son with his single thought of winning and nothing but that. yes. man had pride and .... here as i type the whole table is so dusty and messy. anyone who see this table would have been able to judge this owner. how to live with a person who is totally undesirable messy and kept calling his own family members NAMES (dirty fellow, rubber lips....and ...all the vuglar words one can think of). proclaiming that all these is caused by ME. doesnt....he see that his son though had hearing impaired is NOT totally deaf to all the words he had spoken.

He think the whole world is pushing him away. there is a proverb. self pity and self destruction is the reason why one world become so miserable (nothing to do with the richness)

there's now only one reason why i am staying unmoved. YTS.

Event - 2014

Today i manage to finish a trip that i had planned and scheduled since early feb for my working pals.

Performance rate for myself ? maybe...70/100? it was a simple trip to JB. UK Farm + Noodles factory with stop by at the new YOYO outlet

It seems most of them enjoy the trip and I was blessed with good weather and traffic was very smooth.

Am thinking of relinquishing this duty. can I?

My reminder

one always say. be responsible for own words. own actions and own decision.

close the mouth when unable to speak mindful words
close the ears when there is a choice
listen to the heart when the brain is not well informed

 brain. mouth. ear. heart. its all found as part of the head. i should learn to use their various functions properly.

- remind consistently -

Year 2014

I signed up an online studying program which comprise of 24 management studies modules and i had 12 months to complete all of it.

Year 2014. wishing for luck, happiness, health, safety, of course WEALTH. Got to do some study, learn a musical instrument (started eukele last year but did not complete it. i think i shall pick that up again).

For a better future, for a better self well being. work hard. Jane NEO

SON study Mummy work very hard

I..bought chinese - english - Han Yu Pin Yin dictionary. I bought wu di electronic dictionary!

BUT we still struggle with MTL. one step at a time...just make it through and pray that my son can make it through. :p

*fighting* all the way!