Anger and beyond words can describe calling me names has made me reach my peak of tolerance.
there maybe many areas that i was wrong and had commited mistake but i thought marriage could have seen more tolerance level than that.
one thing for sure. silence does not secure nor solve anything. fight do not see matters get resolved.
giving in one step he toke 3 step forward. my heart has often give ways and hoping that things would get over the hitch and all will be fine. its seems not so.
i tried to improve life i tried to bring the world in but having to drag and pull such a heavy object (the heart) is a up hill task. money to him is everything there is....who had brought him the wealth he had today? the career that he is on track at this stage? yes. i had humiliated him with my intolerance of human mistake (esp that not of my family) but he had humiliated his one and only son with his single thought of winning and nothing but that. yes. man had pride and .... here as i type the whole table is so dusty and messy. anyone who see this table would have been able to judge this owner. how to live with a person who is totally undesirable messy and kept calling his own family members NAMES (dirty fellow, rubber lips....and ...all the vuglar words one can think of). proclaiming that all these is caused by ME. doesnt....he see that his son though had hearing impaired is NOT totally deaf to all the words he had spoken.
He think the whole world is pushing him away. there is a proverb. self pity and self destruction is the reason why one world become so miserable (nothing to do with the richness)
there's now only one reason why i am staying unmoved. YTS.
